It might be because I've been so sick for so long...it might be something else entirely. I feel like I'm going to die, and soon. No- this isn't emo talk. No, this isn't depressed talk.
Take right now, for instance. My stomach is a mass of pain. I can hardly talk, it hurts to breathe. My head hurts and is spinning. I have no appetite, and I feel faint. I don't want to drink. I can't focus on anything and I'm misspelling nearly all of the words I type. I'm shaky. My ass and entire right leg hurts and I can barely walk (that's from me falling down the stairs last week though). I feel like I'm about to have a bloody nose. I feel like I'm about to have a heart attack or stroke. I can't move or walk and it hurts to stand up. I feel like I'm about to vomit, and I'm still bleeding from the miscarriage I had about a week or so ago.
After coming home from Halloween crap on Sat, I slept until this morning- Monday morning. After I write this I'm going back to bed. I have no idea what is going on in my body, but I'm not getting any better. I know I need to eat and stuff, but I suffer from a massive phobia about throwing up, and just the thought of food makes me want to puke. I haven't had sex so I know I'm not pregnant again! I just want to sleep and not wake up. I've been sick since around June or July with no break, and it gets to you, you know? Especially when the doctors can't figure it out because oyu only get 15 minutes with them. What I hate the most is not being able to concentrate. I pride myself in being an intelligent person, and here I can hardly spell. Ehhh
If I do disappear for over a week, then it's a safe bet that something has happened to me.


UPDATE: There is a very real reason I have been feeling so sick. My diabetes has by now advanced so far my medicines no longer work and I am on insulin. My weight loss isn't from me- it's from being too sick. My readings are 97% in the red danger area and there is a very real danger I've had damage to my organs and such